10 things you should know about me.

  1. I think a lot. An insane lot. I wish I could stop, I wish there was some other way to get myself through the day. But it’s been over thirty long years of doing this day in and day out. And I realize there is nothing. This is who I am, this is who I will continue to be. The sooner I accept it, the more at peace I will be with myself and with things around me.
  2. I was once in a very serious relationship with a guy and I broke up with him, or he broke up with me, because I refused to give up my work for him. In retrospect, however, as much pain as that caused me when it happened, the decision worked out beautifully for me. It’s the first decision I ever made in my life using my head and not my heart, and it has since set the trend for almost every event in my life where I have felt torn between the devil and the deep blue sea!
  3. My grandmother’s death about 8 years back and the incidents that have happened since, have been the biggest teachers in my life. She was the smartest, most graceful woman I had ever had the good fortune of knowing and she used to love me like no one has ever loved me again. She was always so beautiful, strong-willed ( sometimes almost to a fault ) and physically fit that when her end approached in the form of an interstitial respiratory illness, I couldn’t believe the helpless state that she was reduced to. I don’t think I have gotten over her death and I highly doubt I ever will. However, I don’t talk much about her to anyone other than my husband or my immediate family as no one is likely to understand the way I feel.
  4. I grapple with weight issues and severe body-image troubles. But more about this in another post!

Now that I have bored you with all the sad, needless bits, let me tell you about the amazing things that help me keep my head above water on a daily level.

  1. I read a lot. And when I say a lot, I mean A LOT. There are days I’d rather not do anything else. The fact that I grew up in a household filled with books and was taught how to read at a very young age, has probably helped a lot. My granddad, the ultimate book-lover himself,  will get all the credit for this.
  2. I absolutely, crazily love the man I have married. Somedays, I wish I could somehow explain to him just how much. His jokes, his smile, his amazing impressions of cartoon characters are literally what keep me going on days when I have had too much crap to bear in office. He is one of the smartest people I know and I have yet to meet another soul who can make me laugh the way this crazy person can. He already knows the depth of my feelings for him and I keep reminding him twenty times on a daily basis about them. But there, I said it. Once again! 🙂
  3. I love my parents, my Baba ( grandfather ) and my little brother, who isn’t that little anymore. I don’t think I love anyone or anything in the world as much as I love these five people and my husband. Together, these folks, unbeknownst to them, are the center of my little universe. My feelings and level of sadness/happiness on any given day are governed almost exclusively by how good or bad things are with my parents and brother and whether the smile on my husband’s face today is wider than it was yesterday.
  4. I cannot function without YouTube and I wonder what will happen to me the day they decide to discontinue it, if they ever do. I watch a lot of interviews and listen to music practically all the time. I cannot fall asleep unless I listen to a Joe Rogan podcast or Oprah speaking to a wonderfully accomplished human being on Super Soul Sunday editions of YouTube.
  5. I intend to write a book someday. I have no clue what it will be about, but I know it will be soon.
  6. And lastly, I love cheese. In any form. On literally anything.